2:00 in the afternoon
Instead of resolutions at the start of a new year, my husband and I participate with our church in choosing one word. Similar idea as resolutions but it is much easier to do something about one thing than attempt to conquer all of my inabilities in only 365 days.
I am having a hard time with my dam word – embrace. Not good being that it is only February. I am not sure I was in the right frame of mind when I chose embrace as my word for the year. We are also encouraged to link the word to a bible verse signifying the work God may be doing in us. I found –
Matthew 11:29 (Like a good PC3 goer, I memorized it) Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart and you will find rest for your souls.
Peaceful, calm, slow moving, able to embrace what comes my way through out the day. I love this verse…at 5:45 in the morning. My children are peacefully sleeping, the world is quiet. I picture myself physically lowering the yoke onto my shoulders with Jesus in the lead, ready to learn and embrace the day planned out for me, reflecting the love of Jesus.
7:45 in the morning, I am tearing that yoke off my shoulders, hurling it across the room. Hard. My morning consists of 2 school age children scrambling with breakfasts, forgotten homework assignments, typical morning stuff and a 2 year old throwing multiple tantrums in various positions on the kitchen floor. A couple of starving dogs are thrown in the mix with a chronically late husband. Grace right? Have a glorious day girls!
I know Paul, life is supposed to go like this:
Romans 5:3 We also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance, and perseverance character; and character hope.
I believe I forgot the fact that I have a two and a half year old when I settled upon the word embrace. I do not always like the character forming in me when “persevering”.
I clench my teeth and bite down on the inside of my cheek, embracing the constant battles. “Wipe your hands, Baby, you’ve got sauce on them.” I know she fully comprehends my directions because her hand immediately moves toward the napkin. Some of the glop on her hands actually drops onto the napkin. Her chubby little hands make a quick turn up into her hair; rubbing, rolling, twirling. Her mouth curves into a beautifully practiced, angelic smile. Lovely. Embrace.
I am sure someone looking from the outside in, could easily say – “If that is the worst part of your day or the most difficult thing you have to embrace today, I’d call it a good day.” You know what, your right, but you have never spent a full day with a manic two year old! Only to face another one tomorrow! Paul speaks of following Christ, being dead to sin, alive in Christ. He sounds so calm. He has such a clear head and focus! Throw a wife and a couple of kids at him. His writing might have been a bit more like mine, nonsensical, lacking clarity, superfluous. Ha!